Surprise, Arizona
Saturday 23 July 2022 4:11 PM
Breathing in…I am honing my voice.
Breathing out…I am loving my world.
Someone asked today what I am “up to.” What I do.
Sometimes I feel as if I don’t quite know. I felt a little lost in how to answer the question. What is it I’m doing, anyway?
Honing my voice. Loving my world. Every day, or at least most days, in every way I know how. I begin each morning with this affirmation as I sit down to my morning pages. Maybe I’m not doing that particularly well. Some days I’m tired or discouraged or anxious. But it’s a beginning. Honing my voice. Loving my world. Flying by the seat of my pants.
I am learning how to take risks, a little at a time. I am learning how to trust myself and how to be happy, a little at a time.
At the end of August, it will be a year since I joined a group coaching course called The Storytelling Academy and began writing a book telling my story. I have almost 25,000 words written. I feel as if it’s falling into place. “Patiently and persistently,” I remember Goengaji’s voice saying when I was sitting in a Vipassana course many years ago, learning and practicing Vipassana meditation.
I suppose it’s the same thing with this…with everything. Patiently and persistently.
No one is telling me how and when to do things anymore, so at this point in my life, I am struggling now and again to find my way. I am becoming self-directed.
Patiently and persistently.
Two years ago, at the beginning of September, I completed a challenge a mentor gave me to “Tell my Story to 30 People in 30 Days”. What a wild ride. It was a gift to myself. I felt triumphant when I actually followed through and completed that challenge.
Just two months ago, at the end of May, I took on another challenge from another coach to tell my story in a video and put it up on my Facebook page. There were so many kind and supportive responses. Mostly, it was a burst of liberation.
In March of 2020, I was certified in Eben Pagan’s Virtual Coach Course. I had completed the 90-day program and attended the Summit in Los Angeles with students from all over the world in February, just before Covid hit hard.
While I was in Florida, during the last half of 2021, I put together a website: coachingwithaly.com. Not much has been done with it so far. And lmost a year ago, I put up a video on Facebook introducing my website and my coaching practice. I put some work into the video and Jake filmed it. But I really didn’t do any follow-up. I have tended to shy away from marketing.
If I let myself, I could get frustrated and annoyed with myself about all these seemingly false starts or half starts. I could become frightened, thinking “I can’t do it.”
So this is what I’ve been doing: Trying to find my way into the new life that’s been waiting for me. Sometimes afraid to step forward. Sometimes unsure I know what to do. Looking for the light. Having sporadic bursts of courage. Mostly having fun, actually.